As you may have noticed, I haven't written much for the blog lately. It's not as if I am running out of ideas, more that I am not sure what happens in my head is good for the blog or is about fantasies, about the delightful pastime it can be.
I do often question my reasons for blogging. I began because I needed to know that I wasn't alone, that I wasn't the weirdest person on the planet and you have truly helped me with this. You have given me confidence in my writing and that means a lot to me, more than most other things, really.
The way I feel now, I find it hard to sit down and write stories for the blog. Maybe I am becoming to cautious, thinking that what I write will be too weird. This, I think is being unfair to you, Dear Readers, because you have always been very kind and not the least judgemental. I tend to write things that are too grim or too silly, and not fantasies as such and I fear they won't fit the blog. Maybe I am just being unfair to you, I don't know.
Maybe I am taking my writing too seriously and is becoming bigheaded. I have always felt that fantasies, for me, are about more than just something nice and exciting I can use when I don't have anything else to do. I am not implying it is like that for anybody else, but I think that some people take it far more easy than I do. For me there is the matter of deeper emotions that are expressed through fantasies and I think I am moving on to more painful things, and the images in my head sometimes appear strange and unappealing.
And, again, you have always told me to just write and don't be too bothered with what you as readers will think. Yes, there is a lot of agony in this, because I have truly loved blogging and now I don't know what to do. It seems a bad thing to abandon it, because my mind is moving somewhere else, but on the other hand, I am not so good at writing the kind of stories I have so far been doing, anymore.
I know my blog isn't the most popular out there, but I also know that you who come back to it are very caring and kind people and I do care about you in return, in my own strange way. I don't want to let you down but I am not good at trying to please you either with the blog. It has been too personal for that and that has been the magic of it all, that when I am personal and selfish, you have enjoyed it too. I really don't want to lose that.
Maybe there will appear a weird and unpleasant story here, now and then, we'll see. In the meantime, take care and be kind to yourselves.
By the way, I am fascinated and a little surprised by the comments to my last piece. It is amazing how the minds works. I have replied in the comments, which I always do (almost), although it takes some time.
8 comments:
Janice, write what you want, when you want, I always check back.
Sorry about my last comment, Manorlord got me exactly, it was meant as a gentle tease, nothing more.
Love and warm hugs,
Paul.
Dear Paul, nothing at all to be sorry about. I am truly amazed about the different interpretations, and if something isn't clear, it is I who should think twice, not you as a reader. Thank you for the encouragement, I will try to stay true to myself.
Hugs
Janice
My dear Janice -- and so you are!
As you know, I've stepped back several times, though for different reasons than yours. Each time I returned to blogging was good (for me), but increasingly difficult to sustain. You were kind enough to print a piece or two of mine during one of my dry periods.
I do think that you worry too much. But that is who you are.
Do keep writing! And do share!
You were my entryway into the looking glass world,and I will always cherish you for that, and so many other kindnesses.
Regards,
Wystan
Dear janice,
"or me there is the matter of deeper emotions that are expressed through fantasies and I think I am moving on to more painful things, and the images in my head sometimes appear strange and unappealing..."
Exactly!
Thats the way for me to. I feel and appreciate thee is so much more in you. However strange it might be. Wil love to read about.
Love, hugs and all the best!
Alan
Janice,
One of the wonderful and largely unappreciated aspects of publishing a blog is that it allows the blogger to reinvent themselves. My blog has constantly evolved, as have I.
I believe your readers are sufficiently resilient and dedicated to follow you wherever your writing should take you. I'm glad to read that you plan to stay true to yourself. As a writer, that is what matters most.
Hugs,
Bonnie
Dear Janice, one thing I keep coming across when I read advice from published authors is that you can't worry over what your audience will think of what you write. I know, far easier to say than do, I completely understand and have myself censored my own writing (when I was actually doing any).
The thing is I love it when authors do push the envelope and challenge me.I am ever amazed at what some authors put their heros/heroines through and that journey can be wonderous even if I do feel nervous, anxious even scared for the characters at times. In fact, I love it when I do as it means I am emotionally involved in the story and that is why I read, to be transported to another place for a time.
I don't really know what I am trying to say except what I have always said to you. Do what is right for you at that time.
Oh and our writing progresses and our drive and focus changes so, I believe, it is natural to change what you write of over time.
Hugs, as always
Mina
Dear Wystan, I think you are right, I do worry too much. You have always been very supportive and I thank you for it, it has been very important to me.
Dear Alan, thank you for your support, I don't know what to say, really. I will continue writing, I will.
Dear Bonnie, those are words that warm my heart. I think you are right, both about blogging and my readers.
Dear Mina, and welcome back. I like 'emotionally involved'. I know I am and if that happens to the reader, I am more than chuffed.
Hugs, to all
Janice
Janice, how utterly --
Oh, oops, darn it all...
For a second there, I thought you'd written that you were "more than cuffed."
Alas.
Wystan
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