Dear reader, I am sorry I have taken so long to blog. It is more than a week now and there will be no story this time either. I have been a little annoyed this week. Friday afternoon when I was about to connect to the glorious Web my modem refused to work. After some testing and thinking and trying to figure out what was wrong I called support. I spent half an hour in a queue. I hate queues so I wasn't my sunniest self when I finally got through. I wasn't rude or anything but not a happy coney either.
It took some time to explain that I hadn't installed anything new, hadn't changed socket and that I had indeed tried another computer, another modem and several other filters and cables and still the same symptoms. Finally the kind man at the other end realised that it may be some real problem here. He promised to call back on Saturday which he did and told me it was something with the 'exchange'. And it could take up to a week to fix.
Broadband was dead until Wednesday when it lived for a while, died again and then worked. Thursday came with more problems and then it working again. Today it has been working all day but only with a quarter of the supposed speed.
I could have been busy writing stories during this time but I do need my broadband for work and I get annoyed and frustrated so I really had no inspiration for blogging. I am sorry about that. To add to my ordeal I had to go to the dentist on Tuesday, only a minor thing but I am really scared of dentists so it was still a kind of ordeal. To be honest I cope quite well nowadays, I have, almost, conquered my fear. When I was younger I had to tell myself, while sitting there waiting for the dentist, that I would survive, I would in half an hour walk out of that door and live.
This fear of dentists makes me think about how this affects my fantasies. There are things that reminds me of the dentist. Being very scared for something and having to wait for it. having someone being intrusive and even hurting you, something that I have to submit myself to and accept. I think I recognise some elements in my fantasies there. I think that, perhaps, I take something that scares me and include it in my fantasies and conquer it by making something positive of it.
Next week will be more normal, I hope and I will try to blog like I use to. Take care and do something nice!!