Tuesday 7 August 2007

I Am Back

It has been a long and lovely holiday. Perhaps a little too much of relatives and people come visiting but it is mean to say that. I do love the company of my relatives and friends. It is just that sometimes you need to be alone, alone with your most beloved. Just to relax and get back on track.


Anyway, I managed to do some writing but very little suitable for this blog. I do have one story I will put up in a day or two. Well, it is not really a story, just a fantasy snippet. But you should know me by now. This is how it works on this blog.


It is a strange experience, coming back after a long holiday. My mind is still confused and this blogging life seems so distant and weird. I am not saying it is bad or anything, just strange. I will get out it and things will return to normal. I am quite convinced.


One good thing with holidays is that it gives you time to think about who you are and what you think. Things I already knew becomes clearer and some new thoughts appear. I have realised how grumpy I can be. This is, definitely, something that makes the real me unsuitable for being the polite and humble submissive I am in my fantasies. I do get angry with people and I do get irritated and I don't always have the patience I should have.


I was complaining about friends and relatives but one good thing about meeting them is that I realise that I am a part of a network of people who really love and care about me and that is worth a lot...well, almost everything.


I am back now and I will continue blogging and I still love to hear from you. I got a comment on my Sad Story that said '...never be afraid to walk the line between umbra and penumbra... that is where the tears come from, and where the treasures are found.' That is one of the sweetest comments I have ever had. It makes me think that, perhaps, I have an ability to convey something of what I feel. And it gives me the courage to continue writing the things I want to write even if it is not just exciting and arousing.


After all, I am glad to be back.


3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Welcome back.

I suspect your readers may enjoy your "scribblings" more than you think. Sometimes the rawer, rough edged piece has more power than you think.

Anyway, Blog On, (when you are ready...)

Wystan

Anonymous said...

Welcome back, Janice.

Often I have passed by your page like a faithful dog wanting to see if its master is home, thinking "Wow, what long holidays that woman has" (I'm off for just three days visiting my mother-in-law tomorrow.)

I agree with Wystan, it is the rawness of your writing which often appeals, sometimes literary polish can overcome the emotion contained therein.

Welcome back.


Ollie

Janice said...

Thanks for your comments. I do say that all the time but I mean it. Those remarks about raw power (a good album by Iggy Pop, by the way) makes me really think that there is some point in me writing. It, surely, gives me confidence to write the things I love rather than trying to figure our what will please any reader. Please, don't read to much arrogance in that! I do want to know what you think but it gives me confidence to stick to the things I know and love.